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Apr. 23rd, 2009 11:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nosuchroses[Filter: Private]
The worst part isn't that I made a complete drunken idiot out of myself, though that was pretty bad, let's be honest.
It wasn't even that she completely schooled me. In fact, I can live with that, though I was apparently pretty worked up about it at the fucking time.
The worst dragonsdamned part is that I think she's ...
I think she might be right.
I've spent the last months running away as fast as I could from what was going to happen, and hey, what do you know, here we are anyways. Nothing I don't do is going to fix anything, so isn't it my responsibility -- oh, I'm good at that one, sure, right -- to do what I can do?
... all this time, I've avoided actually ... saying something because I've been afraid of fucking everything up but holy shit it can't get more fucked up than it already is, can it? I'm getting married tomorrow, almonst, and I can't look at myself in the mirror and say that I really actually want to do it and considering how this has been my one and only dream for -- ever ...
I have no idea what --
Yeah, Eriena, you're right, and fuck you.
... Dragons.
Okay.
Fuck.
[Filter: Hazel]
Hi.
Let's talk.
The worst part isn't that I made a complete drunken idiot out of myself, though that was pretty bad, let's be honest.
It wasn't even that she completely schooled me. In fact, I can live with that, though I was apparently pretty worked up about it at the fucking time.
The worst dragonsdamned part is that I think she's ...
I think she might be right.
I've spent the last months running away as fast as I could from what was going to happen, and hey, what do you know, here we are anyways. Nothing I don't do is going to fix anything, so isn't it my responsibility -- oh, I'm good at that one, sure, right -- to do what I can do?
... all this time, I've avoided actually ... saying something because I've been afraid of fucking everything up but holy shit it can't get more fucked up than it already is, can it? I'm getting married tomorrow, almonst, and I can't look at myself in the mirror and say that I really actually want to do it and considering how this has been my one and only dream for -- ever ...
I have no idea what --
Yeah, Eriena, you're right, and fuck you.
... Dragons.
Okay.
Fuck.
[Filter: Hazel]
Hi.
Let's talk.
